so here i am sitting at my desk, looking out the window every 3 seconds, waiting for that blue mercedes to roll by, so that i can jump out of this seat, and say adios to this school for the next 4 days. man. i just cant wait to get out of here. i'm so sick of school, and lessons here go so fast and you have to study up so much on your own that its physically and mentally draining. and i'm not really the kind which would pick up my txtbk and read it unless my teacher says so. and yeah, with the results i'm producing, i can forget about going to melbourne U, i might as well just pack my bags and go home to do poly, not that its possible anyway, PAE is over.
sometimes i just feel so disappointed with myself, if i just work that bit harder, put in a bit more effort, stop gazing blankly at the teacher in class and actually take down some notes (not like i can understand what she's saying anyway..) maybe i would have done a little bit better on my tests. oh well. i shant just sit here whining and feel bad about myself. i should do something about it, hey? but dang, i just dont feel in it now. i just feel like sleeping or just stoning my day away. maybe i could be a professional droner. maybe i could teach people to relax for a living. oi, i could teach meditation! hahahha. just kidding.
oh yeah. i decided to not go to andrea's house after all. decided that if i were to go there, then my guardian has to come all the way up still. then our group decided to go to the city tmr, so i thought, hey, why dont i meet her in the city? but then i rmbed i had to lug all my luggage down with me and look like some tourist, when i could be hanging around looking like a typical school girl who is really on mid term break, skulking around looking for the Hot Hale Hunks. yeah right. ahha. i was kidding again, btw. so i decided to just get picked up today, and meet them tmr. take the bus or something to the city. though i would probably get lost along the way. i will ask for directions. or maybe i could demand that ernest send me to the city tmr. haha. good idea hey. but nah, that would be way too mean. haha.
i wanna go to the beach! i havent seen the beach.
then tmr after the city then i have to find my way to the lighthouse for crossfire (youth svc)... hmm. i'll probably call someone who can drive who's our age. bleah. this is so troublesome.
man, this weekend is probably gonna be spent sleeping and studying and slacking. getting rest. reflect on my life. and how i can improve it. i seriously need a personal assistant i tell you. to nag at me to do things.
bleah.
a shout of praise.
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